i am my own heroine.

dear blogger..im having a bad time now..i dont know why i always being hurt by someone...is it dat bad to love and be love??is it easy for them to lie to me??am i too nice to them??it keeps bothering me..i try to be cruel to the person who deserve it andi try to be nice to the person who deserve it too..but im always wrong..my friends told me that i always being nice to the wrong person and being so cruel to the wrong person too..what should i do when the time i trusted someone,they lie to me,backstab me..when the time i met someone who is nice and care bout me,i try to be more careful.play hard to get..im scared that i'll be hurt again..dat is not wrong to be more careful ryte??i dont blame my destiny..for me dat is a test from Allah to me..good for the good and bad for the bad..im waiting for the time when i will meet someone that can treat me as human...not puppet..do not backstab me..lie to me or whateva dat makes me feel the hardest pain in the world..i want a normal life..a happy life..this few days,i keep thinking about how to seek revenge to the people who hurts me..but i cant..that is just not me!i know that im not that bad to hurt people..im not god to judge or to seek to them..im hurt..i knoe that i look normal in front of everyone..should i show my face to themm??i prefer to keep it to myself.zip my mouth and feel the pain alone.......